10 Weeks

Tomorrow I hit 10 weeks pregnant.  Um what?  I found a great OB and it is totally weird thinking about how in about 30 weeks I'll be delivering a baby?!  Baby is doing great so far.  I saw baby move at our last ultrasound.  The heartbeat was 176 bpm.  According to thebump.com, baby is the size of a kumquat/prune.  I have very little "morning sickness".  Normally, if I'm feeling nauseous, it means that I need to eat something and then I'm fine.  (knock on wood)  I have a few friends who are a few weeks behind me and it is so fun to compare!  My supervisor at work is 38 weeks pregnant and I like watching her because that's what I have to look forward to!  It's fun to think that really soon she will have a cute baby boy!  I also have a friend who is really struggling with getting pregnant.  It breaks my heart to know how hard of a time she's having.  I pray that she finds her answers very soon!  Anyway, that's how my life is going right now!  Everything is awesome!  Thanks for reading!

Baby update!

You have no idea how amazing it is to say that!!  I'm about 6 weeks along now.  I get very exhausted during the day and really want to take tons of naps.  I only allow myself one nap a day.  My baby (still totally unreal to me haha!) should be the size of a lentil/sweet pea.  On Wednesday, I get to have my very first ultrasound appointment!  I am sooo excited!  This is all too weird.  It mostly doesn't seem real to me.  I have started to feel a little nausea but so far, if I eat, it goes away.  I will be so lucky if it stays that way.  I've started thinking about baby names.  Daisy really wants me to name her (she's decided that it's a girl) Olive.  Lily wants a little sister, too.  Chris really really really wants a boy.  I think I'd rather have a little girl but I'll take whatever I get!  There is a chance that it could be twins!  How fun/crazy would that be!  I want to start collecting baby clothes but I can't because I don't know what my little one is!  What are some suggestions that you have?  I have heard about getting diapers and wipes now...Anything else I should stock up on while I can?  Thanks for everyone who has been with me through my crazy trying to conceive days!  Thanks for reading!!

Struggling

Where to begin...  I guess I will start with my fertility appointment.  The doctor was ok.  He was kind enough to explain about my Polycystic Ovarian syndrome.  Since I am a "teacher" he quizzed me, which made me feel stupid and that I was being treated like an idiot.  It is nice to know what is going on in my body but don't treat me like an idiot.  He did check to see if I had ovulate (which I hadn't) so we could start a cycle right away.  I started Femara again while we were on our vacation.  My doctor wants me to do some Follicle Stimulating Hormone shots and 2 other medicines but our insurance won't cover it and it will cost us almost $400.  We don't have anywhere near that much so I'm waiting to hear back from the doctor to see what he wants us to do.  I'm supposed to start those meds on tuesday.  I will do a Dye Test on wednesday to see if there are any blockages in my tubes or anything.  On thursday, I have a follicle scan to see how my body is reacting to the meds.  So lots of tests and things.  The doctor made it sound like I was an easy case and that if this didn't work, we would try IVF.
Emotionally and mentally, I'm really really struggling.  I've been to the temple, fasted, prayed and received blessings.  I don't feel that I've really gotten any answers or comfort.  I've hit rock bottom.  I don't know what else to do.  I want to give up but I really want a baby so I'm feeling really stuck.  I feel like my faith is so low.  I have a close friend that is struggling with getting pregnant and she is so optimistic and so trusting in Heavenly Father.  Right now, I'm not there.  I have very little hope that I'll get pregnant.  Nothing has worked.  We keep getting hit with road blocks.  I keep feeling like Heavenly Father is telling me no, which makes me want to give up even more.  People tell me that He has a plan and that things will happen when it's supposed to happen.  Those things don't help me anymore.  I don't like hearing those things.  I'm not sure how much more I can handle.  Any prayers, words of advice or anything really would be very helpful.  Thanks for all the love and support that everyone has given so far.  I really appreciate it.

Femara take 2!

So I might not have ovulated in time with my last cycle of  femara.  I'm on day 37 of my cycle and I started provera to jumpstart my period.  While it's still frustrating that we didn't quite get where we wanted this cycle, I am hopeful.  My body definitely changed/reacted with this last cycle.  So I'm hoping that with a little higher dose we might see some real results and not a questionable ovulation.

In other news, I'm on Spring Break!  I'm loving it so far, but I can see myself getting super bored.  I've come up with a list of things to do and I just got a library card so I'm sure I can find some good books to read.  I've been reading a lot lately. It is super weird to have Chris already gone when I get up for the day!  So if you are bored and need some company, call me up!  Ask me to hang out.  Anyway, I'm tired.  Have a great one!

Money

Just a heads up this is a whiny post. 

The week before last, Chris' car was acting funny when he was shifting so he decided to take it in.  A couple days later, the finished price was $2700.  Which for us, is a ton of money.  We took most of it from our Health Savings account and the other 1000 from a new credit card in my name.  But now, Jeepy needs new tires, new breaks, and we will probably have to get the a/c fixed...again.  I just had it fixed last year so there might be a warranty? (I'm hoping there is)  And now we are trying to get pregnant.  I'm starting to think that maybe having a baby right now is a bad idea.  Chris just suggested that we just trade Jeepy in and get a new-er car.  And both our computers need replacing.  (SIGH)  WHY does EVERYTHING revolve around money?  Why does everything have to cost so much??  

On an unrelated note, I've started spotting which is just making me irritated.  I should have my period starting on Saturday or at the very latest Monday next week.  There isn't really a way to know why, just wait and see if it turns in to a period or not. Blargh I don't want to be an adult anymore. LOL

New Family, new blog!

Hello dear readers!  We are the Darrington family.  My hubby and I got married at the end of November.  He has 2 girls from his first marriage.  I was also married before.  We are loving being a family and hope that you enjoy feeling like a fly on our wall!
Thanks for reading!  Stay tuned for more blog posts!